I apologize that I’m a little late posting today’s devotional. It’s not that I haven’t thought about it. It’s not that my day hasn’t been completely filled with praise and prayer to the Lord. It’s that I don’t have the words to adequately express my thoughts today. I kept thinking of the Bible verse I heard when I was pregnant and on bedrest, and I kept reciting it in my mind even though I didn’t know the reference nor the entire passage. “God can do more than we ask or imagine.” I kept saying this to myself yesterday and this morning.
You see, for quite sometime, doctors have questioned Lincoln’s growth and neurological development. His weight fell off the charts at his 6 month appointment for what is normal. His head circumference has always measured well below average. Milestones weren’t being reached. Social interaction was lacking. We spoke to our doctor about our concerns (and I am NOT one to worry the least bit about health issues, especially Lincoln’s!) and he referred us to a neurodevelopmental specialist.
For those of you who don’t know, the last year of my life (and Lincoln’s life) has been punctuated with health concerns, tests, doctors, hospitals, measurements, failed assessments, and otherwise unknown causes for abnormal symptoms! It’s one thing for my health to be in question. It’s a totally different thing for someone to question my son’s viability or development. I can’t tell you (well, if you’re a mother, you already know) how scary this was.
This morning was Lincoln’s assessment and we met with three women who each had a task to do in evaluating my son’s progress. God allowed these three women to be completely genuine, compassionate and loving. (I actually already knew two of them! It’s so nice to see familiar faces when your anxiety is at an all-time high!) Matt and I prayed this morning that Lincoln would “perform”. This was a hard prayer, because I never want Lincoln to have to “measure up” to anyone’s standards besides God’s. But I knew that, in order to have peace of mind and in order for him to “pass”, Lincoln would have to demonstrate the skills and milestones that a “normal” seven-month old should achieve.
And of course he would. Because miraculously, in the two weeks that we knew we were being referred for further testing, something supernatural happened. The things we were concerned about seemed to vanish. The smiles that were lacking suddenly appeared. He actually spontaneously laughed multiple times during this period! He started babbling and squealing! Today, he passed every single test, overcame every challenge and faced every obstacle. He SHINED! And it has nothing to do with Lincoln, and everything to do with Jesus. Matt and I prayed morning and night, even that he would gain a half-pound by today’s assessment. And guess how much he gained? Exactly a half-pound! That head circumference? Nothing to worry about! The doctor measured mine and Matt’s heads and we measure in the 25%ile. Lincoln is just destined to be a little guy. With a small head. But a big brain!
God, in His awesome sovereignty and love for His children, has found favor with us once again! Not only did Lincoln receive an “A+”, we were told that he is actually ahead of his peers with regard to social interaction, motor skills and every other category! This little guy who has failed every test since he was in utero has achieved and now exceeded doctors’ and therapists’ expectations! God is grand! And this is the collection of verses I claim today:
“For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of His glorious riches, He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through FAITH. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have POWER, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how WIDE and LONG and HIGH and DEEP is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses KNOWLEDGE (mine, Matt’s, the doctors!)—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to HIM who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ASK or IMAGINE, according to HIS power that is at work within us, TO HIM BE THE GLORY in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” (Ephesians 3:14-21, emphasis mine)
It honors God when we have faith to believe. It honors Him when we step out and trust Him despite how we may FEEL. It honors Him to ask for miracles. And when He answers, because He WILL, it honors Him when we give Him all the praise and glory forever and ever. Amen.